I woke up this morning and thought I had a sore throat again.

I'm seriously just a huge bundle of nerves right now - this is not attractive. This is why I'm single.

In exactly 48 hours, I will be telling our door crew (my roommate Jesse and friend Andy) to officially open the doors to the Gay Day Ten Cabaret!

AHHH!!!

I have the set list - I have a playlist set up on my iPod for before and after the show - now I just need to learn the music I'm singing the script I'm supposed to be speaking.

AHHHH!!!!

Last night we had a rehearsal for the Gay Day Cabaret - I know, this blog is getting boring with this damn cabaret - but it's seriously all I can think about right now (don't tell anyone at work). 

Anyway, the rehearsal went well - there are some spots that need a bit of attention - and there are some spots that are really great. I think all/in/all the show is going to be a good time. (Is that even how you type all-in-all?)

People are coming to have fun and hear some singing - they're not expecting a Tony award winning performance - and it's for charity - they're also coming for charity. So it will be fine. The audience will not be disappointed. 

I can't breathe at times when I think about how it's just a little over 48 hours away. 

I'm already shaking. I can't sleep. 

I AM SO NERVOUS!

Gay Day Ten is going to be great. But I just want to make sure that people have a good time. And part of that is making sure we have a good show - which I know we do... but it's still nerve-racking. 

Are my jokes funny? Am I on pitch with that high note? Do I know the words? Should I sway and snap? 

But in the end, the night is about having a good time (everyone having a good time) and hanging out. The actual cabaret will only be for about 50(ish) minutes - the rest of the night is just for fun.

Please God, let it be fun. 

Alright, you've seen me post a lot about Gay Day (coming up this Saturday, be there). And the truth is, it's a big deal to me. I know it's a holiday I made up - and I'm unsure if other people actually celebrate the day that they came out of the closet - but I do. And I really like it. I don't really get excited for my birthday - but I get really excited for this.

And this year with it being the 10th Anniversary - I wanted to do something bigger than I have done for Gay Days past. So I have been planning this cabaret show with some friends for a few months now - and I'm extremely excited about it.


So this next sentence is really hard to type. 

I think I'm getting SICK!

I have a scratchy throat - I did nothing but sleep yesterday - I think my glands are swollen (dirty, the ones in my neck!) - and I just feel tired. (of course, it's Monday morning - so that could have something to do with it too). But I seriously (honestly and truly)  CANNOT be sick. I can't. I won't let it happen. 

So I'm not. 

So there. 

Today I'm going to Out On The Mountain - at Six Flags Magic Mountain.

I'M SO EXCITED!

Click on the pic below for details and to join me: 

I thought this was truly awesome - in case you missed it: 

There's just a bit over a week until Gay Day TEN!  Here's the info - I know you saved the date: 

COME OUT to Gay Day TEN! 

A Cabaret Celebrating Coming Out. Being Proud. And Living Free.

Featuring performances by The Cuddlers 

AND the small-town boy himself, Steve Scott, who came out 10 years ago and has celebrated every year since - with Gay Day! 

COME OUT to the Gay Day TEN Cabaret and Celebrate with us!

Saturday, October 1, 2011
10 PM (doors open at 9:45p) 

M BAR 
1253 Vine St. LA 90038

$10 Cover

Proceeds from Gay Day TEN will be donated to AMP (Alive Music Project), an outreach program teaching acceptance and equality in schools through music and personal stories.

I'm seriously so excited that Don't Ask, Don't Tell is gone. And sometimes, I have to admit, I think about joining the military - I just think sometimes I could do more, I could give more. This might sound pretty cheesy - but I'm proud of our country and I would totally defend it. And I can't think of anything more noble than serving in the military. 

And how knows - maybe I will join. 

But for right now, I'm just really happy that the option to serve and not have to hide who I am exists starting today.

Alright - well, I'm back from Nebraska. It was nice to see family and friends.

And today "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" is officially dead! YAY!

Also - the plans for Gay Day Ten are really shaping up nicely.

Now if only I could find a date...